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thanks to all the pim off theater team! you really made me feel like at home. and specially to you barbara toma to take me to milano, what a beautiful phantom you are!! see u soon.
but i have to say… i had suicidal thoughts during the concert; they came to my mind several times meanwhile performing. i thought: “ok, it’s enough, you are an impostor, your music can’t stand a theater recital, you are not a musician, you are fake, recognize that, realize! learn some german language, look for a job in a hotel, have kids, surrender.” i felt it really deeply, i was so conscious of my limits… it was hard, so hard. but i must continue.
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in my way to milano! the first intertational gig with ecce cello. so sweet. here some of the new pieces i will perform (and publish soon).
amit peled, i just listen to him for the first time recently. it’s amazing how many “unknown for the general public” musicians there are out there, who are able to touch the sky with both hands, and bring a bit to us. just can’t shut my mouth watching him playing, what a beautiful technique, which just disappears transformed into music.
5 days ago i was lucky enough to see daniel baremboim rehearsing wagner’s opera tannhäuser here in berlin, just arguing, like two lovers would do, with sasha waltz (stage direction). it was wonderful experience to see this master working, trying to make wagner come back from the tomb. hey!! this argentinian guy had his dick inside jackeline du pre! today i will go to see the full rehearsal. fucking wagner!!! it’s a very special day, seeing a jewish conducting in the city of berlin the music of an antisemitism, who’s music was loved and played for the nazi’s dictatorship not so many years ago in this same city. and tomorrow i must prepare everything for milano!! my first international concert! i’m so content, this is starting to work. lovely this spring in berlin.
i listened to this 15 years ago for the first time in the radio. it took me 5 years to find the cd. i have never listened to a cleanest recording of a cello, with no reverb or effects at all. beautiful! and what about that harpsichord sounding in between all those chinesse instruments? unique recording. what a lovely tune. mmmmmm…
it’s happened once more: rejected. for the first time in my career (after producing a touring 15 theatrical performances with my company) i asked for help; i thought it was time to learn to be helped and supported, i wanted to face theater performance from a different departure point. then i asked for an artistic residence in 5 different places, ranging from alternative, to big cultural centers. 3 days ago i had the last big NO from those 5. NO NO NO NO NO. it’s always been like that, i make culture against the counterculture, and then i must get used to be counterculturized and rejected. fuck, i will keep making culture anyway. being rejected (as a producer, director, actor, musician or human being) has always been pure kerosene for me, that puts my engines at full power.
the master ernst reijseger when he still had hair. what a musician. he did it, he found his way, he found the treasure. didn’t he paul?
after many years editing video with final cut pro, i have decided to go to premiere. it¡s a shame what apple has done to final cut pro. these days i am editing my first videoclip. as always produced from the garage of my mom. with my brother after the camera. mmmm… i think it’s getting a good work. let’s see.
there it goes, a new rameau’s distant nefew‘s chapter.
these last days ending the recording of the new ecce cello album in madrid, ready to go back to berlin, and finish the work began in 2013, finally!. this year i have all i need to take my projects to fruition. nothing can go better.
after 20 years struggling to find and fix the intangible, i am starting to be tired of my limits. why don’t i evolve? why i get trapped in the same nets again and again? i think i have found the reason: my enormous vanity. provably this is the only reason for which i have done everything i have done. so poor!! how can you take away a cause, when you are both at the same time: the person who suffers it, and the person who takes advantage of it. using vanity as a motor, i have accomplished very complex tasks, and achieved many difficult goals. ok. i was a kid without willpower, discipline and perseverance, so i had to learn to take advantage of my disadvantages in order to find my strength. turn my vices into virtues. but you have to pay a price for this: to feed the bug!! when i realize, i did everything i did propelled by the unlimited (but ignominious) energy of vanity, then i wonder if it’s worth it. is there cure for the disease of vanity?? or is this already chronic?
i found this video yesterday. i always used to finish my workdays with the bach prelude (fishing with the prelude, finishing with the prelude). sometimes i think these three years in the streets have been the toughest years, sometimes i think were the most happy and complete… maybe they were the happiest toughest years. i hated that place, under that bridge, with all those aggressive people around, i had to take them away from my money with my bow!!
i’m so happy. everything can’t go better. i had a very down week after the last concert, as usual, but right now i am cured and ready. i’m finishing the recording of the new ecce cello cd that i began past year. it’s so fucking demanding to record, and do everything alone. it’s taking me a lot of efforts, but slowly i am finding the tone. this year everything has changed dramatically. finally i will be able to gradually go out of the streets, once ecce cello has got muscle, it’s time to work on detail and provide the adequate atmosphere to give it quality and definition. that can’t happen out there. i need to get out of the streets. and this year i will be able to do it! i’m so happy. all my efforts are all my efforts are paying off.