Always that I thought about changing the natural course of life, was to finish it, so thinking the oposite for the first time, has been very shocking for me, I suppose it means I’m in love with life. Endlicht.
For the first time in my life I thought it, very clearly: I want to live forever. I don’t want to get old and die. I had never ever thought about it. I felt it deeply. Shit.
It’s almost 3 am. I’m in Mallorca, visiting my father and my two little sisters (two and eight years old), with my brother and my nephew. I fucking love my family. More than happy, I feel completed. Everybody went to sleep hours ago, but I got obsessed with a Bach’s St. Mathwes Passion’s aria (So ist mein Jesus num…) and suddenly missed so much Angelica (Liddell), I couldn’t atop crying.
I really love summer.
I am drunk. I miss you Angélica, write me back. Please.
I was such an asshole! I was young and stupid. Maybe now I’m getting older, but I’m still so stupid. I’m so sorry my love!!! I’m so sorry…
We would be delighted residents, if you would choose in the future to another location!!! Because if you come home K.O. from work and at these temperatures you can’t even open the windows without being anoyed for your never-ending and depressing sounds!
If you, however, should continue to annoy us, we will call the police.
The annoyed residents.
It seems, after 3 years playing at the same spot, I must find another place. The neighbors are always right, and I respect and listen to their complains; and I admit it, my music is sad and repetitive.
I would never ever let my music to be used by the advertisement industry, for a commercial, unless I agree with the product and the philosophy of the company. No matter how much money. I am ashamed of my colleagues, that make up fratricidal behavior and poisonous products to look sweet and beautiful with their melodies, endowing of humanity and emotion the toxic campaigns of big companies. Scheiße! Diversified and professional musicians of the world: I know you have to earn money to make your living, but music should never be sold to Golliath, to help him look like David. As a creator you have a responsibility, you have something to take care of; when you sell this to them, you make yourself not worthy of the gift you have been given.
The saddest part of what this video shows, is that this may be extrapolated to many other fields; from education, to health service or human rights… and of course, this is not an issue exclusively of Sweden.
Interesting, Berlin is giving 8.000€ scholarships for artistic proposals (from performing arts to phography or music). I won’t fucking apply, the lack of money has always been an stimulating way to creating and researching, but maybe you can apply!
My project ecce cello was awarded by the British musician and producer Graham Massey at Music Tech Fest in Scandinavia! Damn! This guy has produced music with Bjork… It’s seems it’s time to get out of ostracism for my cello ass.
Last day in Sicily, I just meet my very good friend’s son, enjoyed traveling in his shitty ban, and felt very grateful of having this shitty friend by my side. All this trip was idea of him and he helped me to organize it, thanks my friend!! I really love Sicily. Have to come back soon.
Little tour in Sicily. Staying and playing at a dreamy place, Ortigia, in Siracusa. Also played a concert in Catania two days ago. I just love this area, not only it’s beautiful and authentic, but also chaotic and wild. People drive cars and motorcycles like wolves, everything looks like Spain 20 years ago. I’m so grateful to be here, the sea it’s one minute away from my room. The people at MOON-ORTIGIA, feed me with vegan food and meat love (thanks Barabara!). They have a big piano that I can play whenever… Can I ask for something else? This is joy and pleasure everywhere. Coming here was an idea of Dario Chillemi, great guitar player I meet in the streets of Berlin. The streets brought me so much in return…
Before my little tour in Sicily, ecce cello will perform tomorrow in Scandinavia at MusicTechFest!! I’m so excited, after years of hard work this is starting to take off. UUhhhh! …But still trying to figure out why I earn much more money playing in the streets, than playing in festivals or big theaters, even if I spend 7 to 10 days researching for each of these performances, creating new pieces, and using very expensive equipment. At some point this has to change radically, can you imagine?? In the case of this next performance… I had to pay all travel and accommodation expenses! The work of two weeks in the streets… I mean, if you are an average artist… how can you afford this?? Anyway, I decided to attend, and I am so happy I was invited. But this has to change very soon.
I lost in the streets of Hamburg one ipod I use to work. It was unblocked, but the girl who found it, instead of erasing it and keep it, phoned someone in Spain from my agenda until found the right person to get in touch and give it back to me. Nice!! Also yesterday I got a mail confirming the first arrival of a “Pocket rhapsody” CD to Australia, isn’t it crazy? There it is, my little son, on the other side of the world. …
Also I had such a great experience performing in Hamburg, I still have to think how it feels, ecce cello playing a gig in such a theater, with giant screens broadcasting my live shit, staying in a hotel suite with Jacuzzy and a giant bed. I still don’t know where does ecce cello belong to. It feels strange… Now I have 4 days to prepare the performance for MusicTechFesf in Umea!! Fuck!! I’m getting it! Ecce cello is taking off! Soon every month will be like this one. Fucking yeah
Working 12 hours day for the ADC Kongress in Hamburg. For the moment I am lost, only 6 days left, but hopefully I will make something to be proud of. Come on!!
BTW Why always that you work in such a big events, they don’t pay?? Can anyone explain that to me? …anyway, I will enjoy and learn a lot, the venue is fucking beautiful, isn’t it??