i am recording again. i found the strength to face it for the umpteenth time, trying to find what is missing from all the recordings i made these past 20 months… this has to be the definitive. i know why i fear this… everyday i have to face, not only my limitations as a cellist, my limitations as a sound engineer, as a producer and composser. being aware of how little i know! that i am almost 40 years old, and there’s no time for me to learn to do it much better than this… it hurts! but at least i have the talent of being a stubborn. if i continue like this, i will finish it.
i will finsih it.
i will finish it.